Bipolar shenanigans

Even if I can’t help myself, maybe I can help someone else.

  • Embracing bipolar: My unfiltered journey.

    I’m not typically a blogger; I’m more of a blog reader. Yet, here I am. The reason is simple: I’ve come to realize that I am not alone in a battle. This revelation struck me recently, and it got me thinking—what if, through this blog, I could reach out to just one other person? What…

  • Will I lose myself in the process?

    My biggest fear is losing myself in the process. I’ve always been a person with a lot going on. Painting, knitting, crotcheing, gardening etc. and I’ve always enjoyed my hobbies. And then they vanish (depression) But then they come back very quickly (manic) And now that I am in treatment, I can’t stop to think…

  • Are we romanticizing manic behaviour?

    I am guilty of this. I have to say, that I love being manic. Or at least I have a little window of my manic episodes that I love. Where I am productive, creative, social and have all the energy I didn’t have when I was depressed. But…there is a but. Actually there are two…

  • This is when I start doubting

    I am getting in a place where I feel better. And this is where I start doubting myself and my happiness. Is it a legit form for happiness or is it just me being hypomanic? I still have a lot to learn about this…

  • Feeling good-ish while manic

    I feel good. But not in a ‘yay everything is great’ good. Not at all. But at least I have much more energy. I am productive as hell. I feel like I get shit done. That I have missed.

  • I’m feeling TOO good (manic)

    It’s interesting now that I am manic while in treatment. I’m still not doing what I am supposed to do. I am not getting my 8 hours, I am not eating throughout the whole day (instead I power through with caffeinated drinks and tobacco) and when I come home I eat so unhealthy. But at…